This is part 2, please read part 1 to get the background:
For years after my early IM ‘implosion’, there was this disbelief that soon turned to numbness. I dived back into the normal 9-5 world having totally given up on have my own online business, that chapter of my life was now closed and entombed…I mean it ‘just wasn’t meant to be’…is what my mind kept telling me.
Every now and then over the next 10 years, the thought would come up ‘what about the online business thing?’…it seemed that was more like a ghostly memory than anything with real intent…
Fast forward to the end of 2019 – because of my own spiritual journey to realise a deeper truth that lies beyond this body and mind, some friends from that circle told me that 2020 was going to a year of deep change and transition…a year that each of us and humanity would have to awake up to itself and step out from the shadows of fear…as they put it ‘the time had come to change’. Well, the world around us and, of course, we ourselves are certainly going through some deep change.
I started to think, ‘hmmm, what about doing something more meaningful, what about starting something online and the freedom it can bring?’ I put the intention and desire out there…yet this time it was different.
And along came Wealth Affiliate!! my prayers answered!
What had changed and what had I learnt?
I did some introspection and meditated on what had happened and what I wanted now, and I soon realised a few things:
In my first foray into ‘creating an online business’…I had allowed myself to be seduced by the glitz and glamour, the material trappings and the promise of easy rewards, in other words…it was ALL ABOUT ME AND WHAT I WANTED. It was an ego centric mission to get lots of things so I could be someone…so the ego would be happy…well lets face it…the ego is never satisfied…it always wants more.
The inner work I had done in the past 15 years meant I was no longer that person…I am no longer interested in making money so I can have all those THINGS; big houses/fast cards/expensive watches and clothes etc, they do nothing for me. I’m not saying having those things is bad…however, if it’s the reason for wanting success in any kind of business or even life etc, then there is something fundamentally askew in your view of the world…it’s just feeding the ego. I mean how many bedrooms can you sleep in at one time and how many cars can you drive at one time?
After my 10 day silent meditation retreat in Feb, I realised that my purpose for making money/creating an online business, is so that I can help/empower/support other people…so I can help alleviate some suffering…so that they are no longer prisoners of their circumstances. My motivation now for my online journey is no longer about ME but about WE.
I have decided to set up a foundation…one that helps empower people, one that shows people and reminds them of a deeper truth…that we are all connected…that this body mind connection is just a garment we wear and is not really who or what we are…and it is attachment to this body and mind that creates our suffering…
So let’s see where this path takes me…I know Wealthy Affiliate is part of it…and will be the topic of my next article